Pregnant Women are Smug

I saw a video on YouTube with this title. It involved two women singing a song about how smug pregnant women can be. I don’t actually think all pregnant women are smug…but every once in awhile my jealously gets the better of me and I start resenting anyone with a baby bump. Last week I was especially mad at the world. I found myself in public areas scoping out the midsections of women like some gals scope out shoes or handbags. If I spotted the tell-tale bulge I thought, “is it really necessary to flaunt it like that?” As if someone who could give birth any minute could hide it from the rest of the world!

Before there is a lot of outrage from women who are or who have been pregnant...I know this is irrational. I’ve been pumping myself full of hormones and they won’t let me off the infertility roller coaster. I’m admittedly a bit all over the place emotionally. I also don’t think that couples who conceive children easily are any less in love with their child than I will be. But there are days when I’m just not the nice person I’d like to be.

Yesterday we had another IUI, so I'm feeling more hopeful again. At least we're at a point again where it's possible that we might get pregnant. Also, we're headed to Alaska for a belated honeymoon in a few days so the trip will help me keep my mind off of all things baby-related (at least to a certain extent).